Food, a complicated subject

When I have high anxiety and have trouble craving food or having an appetite, I try to go to foods that are comfortable. That are easy. I try to eat foods that I know I love. Because even if I don’t feel the need to eat, I know that I will be able to eat certain foods with little to no problem. During these times, I don’t look at labels or calories. I eat food to eat food. I think that there are so many stressors in life and food should not be one of them. When I don’t crave food, it doesn’t taste as good, making me crave things less. It’s an endless cycle. It can be very hard to manage healthy eating on campus when all the food is bland. And when I say healthy eating, I mean healthy eating habits and not dieting or healthy foods. Campus food can suck. And with mushy dining hall foods and repetitive options in the student center, it makes it hard to find food I can swallow. Food gets very boring. And I know. I need to eat. And I do. We all need to eat to survive. But food is about so m

 I never hated food. I think a common misconception about eating disorders is that people who are affected by them hate food. But how could anyone hate food? An eating disorder is defined "as any of a range of mental conditions in which there is a persistent  disturbance  of eating behavior and  impairment  of physical or mental health." The majority of people with eating disorders don't eat or purge due to their view on what food does to them, which ultimately stems from a societal view of what pretty is. Some people fear food. They fear about what the calories or ingredients in the food will do to them. To their bodies.  I have never been afraid of food and the effect it has had on my though. Which is why for the longest time, I never thought that I was ever anorexic. I love the way I look. I'm not that toned. My stomach is not flat. But I do consider myself skinny and many people agree. During times when my anxiety is bad, I find that my appetite is not present. A